Tears.

Early this morning, I woke up and continued on my assignment that is due next week, somehow, for some reason, tears came down. I didn't know why, I wasn't feeling sad, maybe there was some problems with my tear glands.





-Kaze

Irritated and pissed.

I feel humiliated, and I'm pissed. Whatever.


-kage

White and black.

Imagine you're looking at something white now, how do you feel? What kinds of emotions do you get while you're looking at white? Clean? Purity?




Now Imagine you're looking at something black. What kinds of emotions do you feel? Stylish? Evil? Dark?





What is white and black to you, have you ever gave it a thought?
What it is to me, no one knows. At least not yet.

-kage

Itakunai.

No it won't hurt me, no it won't get to me, no, no...this ain't getting to me.


Okay, it hurt, -_-, I'm about to cry. I thought it wasn't going to hurt but it did, and very badly. I hate myself.


-kage

Woke up this morning and had KFC LOL, IKR, sinful much! Haiz, there's so much to do and so little time to complete...oh my gawd! Nuuuuuu, I'm feeling insecure again LOL, time to stuff myself with ice cream weeeee!


-kaze

Time Management.

Okay, I admit that I have bad time management. Haiz, can't really juggle my CCA, studies and my practice for tournaments..it's like LOL, my lecturer confronted me and asked what happened to me, why did I fail her test....then I'm like eh, *looks at the floor*..



Time to go back to my studies! *continues studying*, haaha...jia lat my fever like getting worst..


-kaze

Me, just me.

Okay, I'm gonna whine a lot so yeah, don't read if you're not in the mood lol.




I'm tired..honestly. Everyone have their own reasons, their own point of perspective, their own concerns, their own set of reaction to anything, I know, I understand..but sometimes...sigh..nvm.



All the worries and what not are eating into me, I just don't wanna think anymore, I feel really horrible to be bothered by every single little thing..and the best thing is, it's just me.





I don't wanna be in love, I don't want to like anyone. I want to be alone with myself, so nothing can reach me. As childish as it sounds, that's the only conclusion I came up with. Why am I like this? At the verge of tearing, I asked myself..why...am I like this? Why do I keep anticipating things that would never happen? Why do I have any expectations, it's not like I'm anything much....it's time for me to get more rest, I think my fever is getting to me.


Goodnight my voice.
-kage